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[Sep. 29th, 2007|05:40 pm] |
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Heya everyone, it’s me and I figure it’s been awhile so I might as well post an update as a number of things have changed for me in the last couple of months.
Biggest thing, I am in Toronto now! No more Hamilton for me!
I have relocated for school, as commuting to Toronto would not really be realistic. I am now a student at the Shiatsu School of Canada, studying Shiatsu. I started in September and it is a 2 year course to completion. I really love it here, and am quiet happy being at the school. It is so wonderful when you launch into something and it not only is what you expected, but exceeds your expectations.
I am sure most of you do not know what shiatsu is, or know much about oriental medical arts, as I had no damn clue until I specifically looked into it. Shiatsu is a form of massage which originated in Japan. Shiatsu literally translates to “finger pressure”. Now shiatsu goes beyond massage as it is a therapy which is used to correct and heal ailments in the body. The way that shiatsu, along with various other forms of Traditional Chinese Medicine, does this is to correct the imbalances of energy (Qi) in the body.
I find it absolutely fascinating, and I am very grateful to have found this path for a career and a school to go along with it. I am glad I waited and took time to decide which route to take in my life, because I have found it and am now eagerly perusing it. Classes keep me pretty busy, but that is rather unavoidable in school :P. Making the shift back to studying and taking notes, and not procrastinating will be fun.
So, that’s the stuff with me now, the big city has treated me quiet well and it is wonderful having 2 big grocery stores, a mall, a walmart, a bunch of small shops and school all in walking distance. It’s been a series of rather signifigant changes, but a great ones at that.
Take care for now!
Liam |
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[Aug. 3rd, 2007|09:43 pm] |
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Scientology pisses me right the hell off. I hate it so much, it makes my face turn red and my blood boil. If there was one thing I would like to see abolished, destroyed and made illegal, it would be Scientology. But not for the reasons you might be thinking.
Ok sure it is some pseudo-religious nonsense bullshit, praying upon those which need a sense of belonging and truth in their life... But that's not what pisses me off.
It's not the fact that any marginally intelligent rational person should see right through it either...
It's the fact that they based a religion off of a shitty science fiction writer!!!
For fuck's sake, why L. Ron Hubbard?
Give me a religion based off of a GOOD sci-fi writer.
Lucas is a little better, but not much! (fuck you jedi)
H.P. Lovecraft!!
HERE is a writer who deserves a religion based off of his works! It's not that he is all that amazing of a writer, it's WHAT he wrote about. While Hubbard was off writing Battlefield Earth (and YES he wrote that stupid fucking book, and YES there was a book first), Lovecraft was off writing tales of the journey of mind and knowledge into the indescribable horror of reality.
Ok, here is a comparison of some of the writings from Hubbard and Lovecraft;
"I am 54 Charlee Nine, the Robotbrain in the Translatophone, and in accordance with the Royal Publishing Code (Section 8) which states that "Any work published in a language other than the original shall be so identified in an introduction by the licensed translatophone," I am delighted to take this opportunity to give this account of how I translated Mission Earth into your language—and, quite frankly, it wasn't easy."
* Mission Earth "Voltarian Translator's Preface" Vol 1
"The odour rising from the newly opened depths was intolerable, and at length the quick-eared Hawkins thought he heard a nasty, slopping sound down there. Everyone listened, and everyone was listening still when It lumbered slobberingly into sight and gropingly squeezed Its gelatinous green immensity through the black doorway into the tainted outside air of that poison city of madness."
* H.P. Lovecraft, The Call of Cthulhu (1926)
Like come on! If they ever made a mass-religion based upon his writings, I would throw away my free thinking and individualism and sign up post haste! I am not joking in the least, either. Think of it! Lines upon lines of cultists singing songs of the Elder Gods awakening!! Throw in a few celebrities, millions of dollars, top notch lawyers and a propaganda campaign. Man, we would have the children with us in no time!
It's not only what the respective authors wrote about... it's also WHO they were. They are both fucking crazy, don't get me wrong.
The difference is that Hubbard is the politician variety of 'self-importance' insanity.
Lovecraft is the 'crazy as bat shit' insane. Here's an example and a good one;
"’Psychiatry’ and ‘psychiatrist’ are easily redefined to mean ‘an anti-social enemy of the people‘. This takes the kill crazy psychiatrist off the preferred list of professions...The redefinition of words is done by associating different emotions and symbols with the word than were intended...Scientologists are redefining ‘doctor‘, ‘Psychiatry’ and ‘psychology’ to mean ‘undesirable antisocial elements."
* L. Ron Hubbard, Hubbard Communications Office Policy Letter, 5 October 1971, PR Series 12, "Propaganda by Redefinition of Words"
"The most merciful thing in the world, I think, is the inability of the human mind to correlate all its contents. We live on a placid island of ignorance in the midst of black seas of infinity, and it was not meant that we should voyage far. The sciences, each straining in its own direction, have hitherto harmed us little; but some day the piecing together of dissociated knowledge will open up such terrifying vistas of reality, and of our frightful position therein, that we shall either go mad from the revelation or flee from the light into the peace and safety of a new dark age."
* H.P. Lovecraft, The Call of Cthulhu (1926)
So please hear my words Scientology Followers... I don't slam your choice to base spiritual beliefs off of science fiction... Just please choose a good author with the PROPER type of insanity. Insanity can be a good thing to follow, but don't follow it to the stars and to self importance! Follow insanity to the depths of hell and horror until the reality of existence shatters your own sanity and you may then be free to start a religion of your own!
"Children will always be afraid of the dark, and men with minds sensitive to hereditary impulse will always tremble at the thought of the hidden and fathomless worlds of strange life which may pulsate in the gulfs beyond the stars, or press hideously upon our own globe in unholy dimensions which only the dead and the moonstruck can glimpse."
* H.P Lovecraft, "Supernatural Horror in Literature" (1927)
Vote for the Elder Gods!
-Liam
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[Jul. 15th, 2007|08:31 pm] |
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It is truly amazing what can happen to you in your life. Or simply life itself can truly be amazing. It's a wonder what you can do, how you can change and how you can feel.
My life has changed. In some not-too-unrealistic terms, I am a different person. Different in the way you grow up, leave your old self behind and grow to your next stage in life. The days are filled with joy and happiness, not always 100%, but close. I have no fear of this changing, none at all.
"Life is a mirror. Smile, see the world smiles back."
Perhaps more accurately, life is a mirror of yourself. You know all those shitty days. Those fearful thoughts, those bad feelings. You created them, you are responsible for your own suffering. In a very fundamental way, which has no limits, you shape your own world. Change yourself and you change your world, and what happens to you.
Regardless of what anyone tells you, you are the only one who has caused pain in your life. If you take responsibility for this, you can cease to cause your own suffering.
The past does not exist, so why do you let it control you? Confront the pain, understand it, explore it, express it, and then lay it down to rest. Let it go.
Do not seek happiness, for if you seek it you will never find it. Instead learn why you seek it, and who you are. If you do this, your world will brighten up and all you will see happiness. Not in the mystical mountain tops or in your lover's arms. But just under your couch, and in your back pocket, where you never even thought to look.
The reason for all of your suffering is your own soul. Confront and come to know your soul; then you can surpass suffering.
It is true, and if you look deep enough, you will realize it. It is your own fear, your own insecurity which tells you that cause of suffering is external.
Confront the past
Capture the present
Choose the future
Grow, change, love, LIVE! Or, do nothing.
There are many ways to do this, many paths, many teachers.
The first step to doing this is to make the choice. CHOOSE to change your life, and honor that commitment. CHOOSE to change. Trust the rest to follow.
Choice the the biggest part in the beginning, you must make the choice and mean it. The decision to do nothing is a choice as well. Choosing to let your suffering control you is an option, do not forget this.
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Throughout the last few years I have written posts talking about things similar to this. Usually having some point, some depth. Some wisdom
This is who I am, and this will be the last time I post anything of this kind. The reason for this is because I do not wish to fall in love with my own words.
The best way to not preach is to cut out your own tongue.
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| Revolver |
[May. 17th, 2007|07:54 pm] |
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It is amazing how something so simple can have such great significance. Or depth.
Have you ever seen the movie Revolver? I think it may now be my favorite movie, though I don't understand it. It's not so much a head game movie, as say... Donnie Darko. But rather THE head game, because it is not a riddle in the sense we might think... as it's not self inclusive. The riddle is not ABOUT itself, the riddle is about us. The riddle is both a metaphor and reality simultaneously.
Watch the film and be prepared to hate it. Ironically enough the film will describe why you hate it, in ever so subtle detail. If you do not understand it, watch it again. I am getting the impression that if I were to watch it over and over for the rest of my life, I may never fully understand it... and yet it would not be a life wasted.
I have never been a 'religious' individual, but I feel I am getting the feeling of security that one might feel knowing that god was actually watching over them. This sensation is spawning from the realization that the answers are actually out there. Knowing that there are answers, and knowing one is not ready to know it yet seems to fill me with a feeling of sublime. Yet, being reassured at the same time.
I guess it's a matter of truly believing something. I am not saying I believe in the film, or some shit like that... rather... I believe what the film alludes to, and no, its not the con. The film is nor ever was about that.
Anyways, I am doing great and will continue to feel great. I am looking forward to new undertakings and new experiences (like hopefully a Korn concert! WOOT).
Thats it for now;
Peace, Love and Stuff
-Liam |
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[Dec. 24th, 2006|12:59 am] |
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Hello everyone, how are you all doing?
Not much new is here. I still work at Zellers, but it looks like I will need to find a new job, because they are going so slash my hours after christmas. Bastards :P. I am not looking forward to another job search, but I suppose there isnt too much that can be done. I am partly wishing I just went to college for something, but what can you do? Besides work and financial goo, everthing else is going good. A bunch of my friends who are out and about in university came back for christmas came over last night. Was alot of fun to see them again, heh, still have to clean up too.
Besides that there isn't much else going on around here, but it definatly is enjoyable. Oh, one new thing is that I apparently have met a "seer" online. This one has me truely perplexed. Ok, I have been chatting to this guy for a couple of years. He is younger then me, and we have a similar situation which makes it benifital to be able to talk to eachother about stuff. I have never met him IRL either, though he does live in ontario. ANYWAYS, out of the blue he messeges me saying "I have to talk to you, I had a dream about you last night". I ask him what about, and he tells me that it was the most realistic dream he has ever had. He tells me that in his dream I was at my friends place, and were haveing a discussion. So he tells me what the descussion was about, what the room was like, what was said, what happened ect.
The thing that fucks with me is that what he dreamt, happened. Percisely as he described it. He described the situation, what I was feeling, what I was doing, what I was thinking perfectly. Now, one could rationalize this as he knows me and just guessed about what was going on. But he got what the room looked like too. Even specific details, like;
Kev0315 says:
well the one other thing i rember seein was that u kept lookin at like a tv but it dint look like a tv...
Liam says:
what does it look like?
kev0315 says:
kinda like a computer monitor but theres no computer there so that cnat be right
Now my friend has a computer monitor functioning as a TV. This is where I had the jaw drooping stupified look on my face.
Now this kid apparently has had dreams similar to this his whole life, and has had about 3 more dreams since the one I just described, and each one of them were 100% accurate for every description. Like what I was wearing, or even thinking. My friend who has the computer monitor is just as baffled by this as I am, as I sent him a copy of the conversation I had.
I know the signifigance of this really doesn't come across as strong as a story. But as an experiance, it is... just messed. I always have believed in supernatural things, but this just proves them to me, so I can't deny them. I really am not sure how to respond to this, but his is by far the most bizarre thing that has happened to me. I really want to meet him now, and talk to him in person, cause online does suck and stuff like this just fascinate me. |
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[Sep. 27th, 2006|08:29 am] |
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I saw this on a friends journal and I just HAD to post it for everyone else.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vr3x_RRJdd4
Makes you all warm inside doesn't it? I love people. |
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[Sep. 12th, 2006|08:08 pm] |
Hello everyone! It's been awhile since I have posted, but well I have no internet right now which I will explain in a second.
Everything is pretty good, though a number of large changes have happened. The biggest one is me moving out. I'm now located in Hamilton (still) though actually inside the city now. For those who are familiar with Hamilton geography it's in between W5th and Garth, parallel to the Linc. It's in a nice apartment, one which everyone has actually been surprised with it's condition and it actually being clean. My roommate, Stephen, is a good friend of mine, one who I get along well with. Actually out of all of my friends he is the one I would honestly prefer to room with (the reason being the way we click is very adequately suited to living together), which works out very well.
So we are slowly getting settled in... and really getting an appreciation of things which have always been taken for granted, like money or food for example. It's been fun, and it is fun actually cooking. It's weird how when I lived with my mom, brother and sister I would rarely cook, and when I move out I start cooking every night, or a good chunk of nights at least.
Oh and the no net/phone thing is because is hasn't been set up yet... it gets connected on the 19th.
Um, besides that I have applied to Mohawk College for Child and Youth Worker, I should be hearing back from them soon to see if I have been accepted *crosses his fingers*. I was intending on going into General arts and Science, but I found that all the course selections that I would have chosen were sociology like courses... so I figured I might as well go into a sociology program. I’m looking forward to that college fun everyone has been preaching to me since birth.
What else... oh yeah Feral. Feral was fun, though once again I didn't really socialize all that much. I really seem to treat it as a vacation to hang with already established friends, rather then a convention meant to meet other people. I guess that’s half true, seeing as honestly another reason to go is to see if there is anyone I find *cough* attractive :P. But anyways, it was good over all. 2 the Ranting Gryphon went too, which was defiantly an added amusement. I’m a marginal fan of what his comedy, but have never really subscribed into celebrity or idol worship, so it was no huge deal. I got an autograph for a friend of mine (who is not furry ironically) who is a fan as well. My friend isn’t a celebrity worshiper either, and I don’t mean to imply that… cause I know I would love an autograph if I didn’t actually see the person myself; but the actually chance to watch them do their thing is much more memorable then a piece of paper.
I think that is mostly it for now. I can’t think of much more to ramble at the moment, which is probably a good thing to happen on LJ at times. So if I haven’t seen you in a while (and you know who you are!!) I would love to hear from you (I guess when the net gets re-established) and I’ll have to come visit, or vice-versa cause there is a number of you who I really do miss.
Take care and talk to you soon
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[Jul. 11th, 2006|12:07 am] |
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How is it going everyone? I am really not sure why I am posting yet... I guess I just feel like it. That is unusual for me because I usally have a point or purpose when I post.
Anyways it was great to see Stephen last weekend, I missed him. We checked out the apartment we are thinking of moving into and I think it's a keeper. I am really pumped about moving out too... it will be so great to get out and get away. I get along great with Stephen aswell, so I think it will be a great co-existance there, one of which I am fiercly looking forward to.
I normaly don't go on about anything too personal about my life here, cause well it can come off as angst all too easily and well... I guess I care too much about how others view me... probably to a bad level, by where I only put what I think people will either want to hear or like (which is a bad thing to do). But I will go in about some of my emotions because they are positive now, and well, that is safe to share :)
I've recently really got over a whole lot of emotional baggage which has been bogging me down for the last while. The specifics of what happened are old news and not really important, but what is important is that it is gone for now. I really feel good and bouncy and silly and all of those fun feelings that you feel when you let yourself feel good. I have that whole "Rawr! lets take on the world!" feeling now :P. Which is probably bad when you are a fox, but meh.
The trick for what worked for me? Talking and confronting. I have a tendancy to run from things, but I decided to stand and confront my problems (thanks to a good friend who helped me through it). You can't run from emotion, you can't shrug it off or lock it away. It builds up and builds up until you don't feel anymore... You have to acknowledge it's there and then address it so you can finally lay it to rest.
Unfortunately this usally means confronting something which was painful enough for you to lock it away in the first place... but trust me, it is worth it! These lyrics come to mind;
"I want to live
I want to love
but it's a long hard road out of hell"
I know that is true with many I know, and the road through hell is one which we WILL face. But remember... at the end of it is life and love. You would be supprised how something so simple can become so obscure. Something so important to us, and we ourselves are the ones who lock it away.
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[Jun. 6th, 2006|09:58 pm] |
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Hello everyone.
I figured I should use an LJ for its intended purposes, rather then what I have been using it for so far :P.
Well, I'm still looking for a job. I quit my golf course one a week ago because of all of the BS there. I felt really bad at quitting, which supprised me. I didn't think I would miss my co-workers as much as I did but it was good while it lasted I guess. Still hoping to find a job, I went out with Lithe today because I havn't seen him much and during the evening I went to drop off a resume to Walmart and found out there was a job fair. I went there and it took freaking ages for it to go anywhere. I actually ended walking out inbetween interviews because of the time it was taking. So it turned out to be a huge wast of time, especially for Lithe, I did feel really bad about it (which is why I walked out).
Um, so besides the current job hunt I am prepairing for College. I'm heading to Mohawk for a General Arts and Science course... Yeah, its a pretty pathetic course, but I need to figure out what I want to do with my future, and this course is kinda meant for people like that as far as I can tell. The plan is to have Hunter as a roomate and find some apartment somewhere in Hamilton. I'm really really looking forward to that. We get along great and I'll fianlly be out of the house *hops*.
I suppose thats pretty much all thats going on or will be going on with me in the next bit. I'm looking forward to Feral. I'm also jsut starting to poke my nose into the club scene, as I turned 19 a few months ago. Some of them are pretty neat, and I'm looking forward to going to some of them. Though it does mean that I need to find some friends to go to those clubs with, because not too many of my friends are into the type of clubs that I would be into. And I need to go to a styles and find some kind of hair stylest that actually suites me XD. |
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[Apr. 2nd, 2006|05:45 pm] |
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I've been thinking about posting this for a bit, and finally got enegetic/bored enough to post it. It's nothing itense and actually has no real point to it, just amusing and interisting I guess (well I think so anyways).
I was talking to Hunter a few months ago, and we got on the subject about interaction between people. It all started when he was on the computer and I was half sitting half standing on the desk that the computer was on... thus resulting on me being above him. He finished checking his email or whatever he was doing, and we started chatting. I can't remember exactly what was said, but he mentioned how it felt slightly uncomfortable for me to be standing over him like that, especially in such close proximity.
I found that interisting because I was kind of uncomfortable standing over like that aswell. (I usally sit/stand like then when he is there, so don't think that this was a big deal or he is domineering to a ridicouls level!)
I thought about it and started to realize a strong tendancy of inteaction that I did with others. Though the nature of the interaction is not news to me, the subtle and unconscious things that I, aswell as others did, was. When Hunter and I chat, we are usally in his dorm, because well, thats just what we do I suppose. Being that it is tiny (a chair, desk and bed is all), he usally sits in the computer chair and I usally on the bed. I thought about the whole "being higher then thou" thing we had talked about, and I typically lay down on the bed when we talk, resulting in me constantly looking up at him. I never really thought about this, I just do it because it feels very comfortable to me.
The height distinction spands beyond Hunter too, I typically feel more comfortable being lower then someone (this is not because I am less then anyone or something... this isn't an agnst post, so please don't interpit it that way). Granted I am not that tall, so its nothing out of the ordinary. This whole height things is all over the place. Think about it, the king sits on a dias, higher then his subjects. Bowing is lowering yourself. In a bar or something when tension is high, standing up is a clear sign of challenge and of a fight. I think the reason I do feel that way is simply the role I naturaly assume, or "my place". Everyones is different, and to some people, I feel uncomfortable being "lower" then them... I guess its something like the human pecking order, and everyone has their place they naturaly fill.
I personaly really like to relate it to the whole wolf pack idea. It's a very natural way of things, someone needs to be the "alpha" and other subordinats under that. Humans are pack animals, so it makes sense that that type of relationship and interaction heavily influinces us. Like, even the way we hug at times... its similar to how two people dance and where they put there hands. Around the waist seems to be more "dominate" then around the shoulders. Doing one of them one up one down things seems to be kind of neutral. I don't know if this is true or not, but it might be :P.
One thing that drives me so crazy is when people take posistions which are outside their "roles", either above or below their station. Like someone who should not be "in charge" either is incharge, or assumes he/she should be. Or vice verca. There isn't really any shame in acknowledging your order in the scheme of things, even if it's at the bottom because even the ones at the bottom have an important role to fill. I think the same thing goes with intimate relationships, the whole dominace vs submission thing (I dont mean sexual kink either here). Though I am not speaking through experiance, but I imagine it is a healthy and natural thing to have the roles sorted out, even though there is no words spoken about it. I guess the problem arises when one does not respect the posistion of another. The you get that whole fun domestic violence stuff.
Anywas thats enough about that... cause well in all honestly I don;t really know what I am saying or trying to say. But it's very funny to see all these little unspoken interactions which determine so much about a person and their relationship to whomever else. I doubt that many find this interisting, but screw you, it is cool!
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[Mar. 8th, 2006|09:25 pm] |
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Wow, its been a while since I posted... I actually had to look for the tab to figure out how to get to this type-it-in screen. It's the "update" under the Journal tab if you were wondering.
I just have recently come from a reasonably long bus trip (which went very well and safe for those who were aware of my trip), and during the trip I was thinking. I have been thinking about this topic for a while, but never have gotten around to posting it. One of the reasons for that is how I look, or fear how I may look to those who read what I write... I don't want to look like some smart-ass who always has something smart or some self-important / self-righteous bullshit to say. What I post here is just those once in a while things which I learn or hear from others. The reason I post them is because I truly enjoy hearing other people’s opinions and responses as well as similar thoughts. So I don't write this because I like the sound of my own voice, but the hopes to hear similar things back, cause I know how much I would and do appreciate when I hear something similar from someone else.
In fact what I'm about to go on about is nothing from my head, just something I read which makes a hell of a lot of sense so I'm sharing it here. So don't think that I came up with this or something... I'm a fox... my mind usually is elsewhere (or so I'm told).
Anyways, now that this has been built up enough, what I have been referring to is simple decision making and how we do it. We all do it differently and base the reasons and choices off of different things, but the one universal thing about choices and decisions is that we all fuck up some decisions. Some are small ones like "wow, I really shouldn't have had another slice of that greasy pizza, and now I am about to throw up", to "wow, I just couldn't resist screwing that gorgeous guy last night, and now I have an STD".
I know I've messed up decisions, as we all have (and I don't have a STD, that was an EXAMPLE) but one of the reasons we can mess up decisions is because of what we base the decision on. What I mean is I choose to eat that extra slice because I didn't want to let it go to waste, not because it is unhealthy to eat more. How the book I was reading described this does it much better, so please refer to that, but the comparison that they used is the difference between pleasure vs happiness. If we base our decision on happiness rather then pleasure, it should reduce those fuck ups we make.
The reason for that is because pleasure and happiness are very different. Sure it was pleasurable to have the one-night-stand, but the real question is did that decision make me happy? Really, think about it. How many decisions do we make that really make us happy inside? Pleasure is really damn simple to accomplish but happiness sure isn't. Happiness is what we seek inside, we don't seek a mate for pleasure (that’s what whores and orphans are for) we seek it for love and a form of true happiness.
If we really start thinking and basing decisions on that, it could really help, couldn’t it? Like, you have the option to move somewhere for a job, the money is good, but you fucking hate it there. If you analyze the decision with the idea of happiness rather then pleasure, it probably will turn out so much better. I know I am the last person to be preaching this, but it doesn’t change the brilliance of this idea. I, hopefully, will start basing some decisions this way, cause well, it would be cool to be happy :P.
Now once again this ain’t my idea, I ain’t some wise intellectual jackass, I just am the middle man telling people who I give a shit about something which has effected me positively.
Thanks, Liam |
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[Nov. 23rd, 2005|06:44 pm] |
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I was puttering around LJ, and figured that I would post something... it has been awhile. Not that I don't come here often, as I do read my friends posts, I just noticed I havn't posted in a bit. Since I'm rambling, I'll stop and be brief XD.
I like quotes. I really like em, so I figured I'd post a bunch of my favourites here. Please post yours too!!
"This is your life, and it's ending one minute at a time"
-Fight Club
"Seven sins of life: Politics without principle. Commerce without morality. Wealth without work. Education without character. Science without humanity. Pleasure without conscience. Worship without sacrifice."
-Ghandi
"Tragedy is when I cut my finger;
Comedy is when you fall into the sewer and die"
-Mel Brooks
"Would you prefer to be conscious or unconscious during the mating? I would prefer conscious, but I don't know what your .. pleasure threshold is."
Ambassador G'Kar to Lyta Alexander, Babylon 5
"I support the fertherment of Stem Cell Research,
But only as a by product of my support for the killing of babies"
-Unknown
No thought, no reflection, no analysis, no cultivation, no intention; let it settle itself"
-Tilopa
"They want the federal government controlling Social Security like it's some kind of federal program"
-George W. Bush
"You can never win a conversation with an idiot"
-my dad said it... not sure where he got it
"You know, I used to think it was awful that life was so unfair. Then I thought, wouldn't it be much worse if life were fair, and all the terrible things that happen to us come because we actually deserve them? So, now I take great comfort in the general hostility and unfairness of the universe."
-Marcus Cole, Babylon 5
"The difference between what we do and what we are capable of doing would suffice to solve most of the world's problems"
-Ghandi
"Sanity is your mind in a box"
-My friend, Allen
Summer at its height-- and snow on the rocks! The death of winter-and the withered tree blossoms!
-Zen Quote
"I love my grade, they are a bunch of fucktards with no future"
-My sister
"Silence is argument carried on by other means"
-Che Guevara
"We'll never be a big rock star, celebrated victem of our fame;
We'll just cut our wrists like cheap cupons and say that death was on sale today"
-Marilyn Manson
"Sex is Not the answer
Sex is the Question
Yes is the answer"
-Some random T-Shirt
"You're not your job. You're not how much money you have in the bank. You're not the car you drive. You're not the contents of your wallet. You're not your fucking khakis. You're the all-singing, all-dancing crap of the world"
-Fight Club
"It requires more courage to suffer than to die"
-Napoleon
"Kupo!"
-a moogle
"In our time, political speech and writing are largely the defense of the indefensible"
-George Orwell
"When we were good, you just closed you eyes...
So when we are bad, we'll scar your mind"
-Marilyn Manson
"The reverse side also has a reverse side"
-Japanese Proverb
"Perhaps I'm old and tired, but I always think that the chances of finding out what really is going on are so absurdly remote that the only thing to do is to say hang the sense of it and just keep yourself occupied"
-Douglas Adams
"Indolence is a delightful but distressing state; we must be doing something to be happy.
Action is no less necessary than thought to the instinctive tendencies of the human frame."
-Ghandi
"This case has had full analyzation and has been looked at alot"
-George W. Bush
"Like my Plastic Surgeon always says; 'If you gotta go, go with a smile'"
-The Joker
"If I had no sense of humor, I would long ago have committed suicide."
-Ghandi
"I shall pass through this world but once. Any good thing that I can therefore do, or any kindness
that I can show to anyone let me do it now. Let me not defer it nor neglect it.
For I shall not pass this way again"
-Frank Herbert, Dune
"Let your mind wander in simplicity, blend your spirit with the vastness, follow along with things the way they are, and make no room for personal views-then the world will be governed"
-unsure
"The difference between genius and stupidity is that genius has its limits"
-Albert Einstein
"If Jesus comes back, we'll kill him again"
-Another random t-shirt
"I know it's the last day on earth,
We'll be togher as the planet dies...
I know it's the last day on earth,
We'll never say good bye..."
-Marilyn Manson
"Two days from now, tomarrow will be yesterday"
-*shrugs*
"A monk asked Ma-tsu, "What is the Buddha?" Master Ma answered, "No mind, no Buddha."
-a story of Ma-tsu
"The bible contains six admonishments to homosexuals
and 362 admonishments to heterosexuals.
God loves heterosexuals, they just need more supervision"
-no clue
-"I would give my left arm to be ambidexterous"
-someone
"Be the change you want to see in the world"
-Ghandi
"I fear an army of one hundered sheep lead by a lion more than
an army of one hundered lions lead by a sheep"
-Napoleon? I can't remember who
"If you want to improve be content to be thought foolish and stupid"
-Epictetus
"Dance as though no one is watching you
Love as though you've never been hurt before
Sing as though no one can hear you
Live as though heaven is on earth"
-Souza (A fav of mine)
"Arguing on the Net is like being in the Special Olympics: even if you win, you're still retarded"
-sure its mean, but it is funny... come on!
"Human beings, who are almost unique in having the ability to learn from the experience of others,
are also remarkable for their apparent disinclination to do so"
-Douglas Adams
OK, I am NOT attempting to be an intellectual here. My evidense is that I quoted Mel Brooks, Douglas Adams, George W Bush and Babylon 5! Who quotes a sci-fi show? And Geroge Bush?? Not intellectuals for sure. And my mood is bouncy! Come on!!
In reality I am just being silly, stupid, cynical or quoting some thought provoking thing.
And whats better then mashing them together? Isn't life a blend of them all anyways? |
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[Jul. 23rd, 2005|10:10 pm] |
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| | okay | ] |
| [ | music |
| | This is the New Shit - Marilyn Manson | ] |
I've thought about this lately, and this has really made sense to me. I guess I'll post it here.
I know that I have really wanted a mate, really felt it deep inside me and have really hit home about how desperatly I want one. Usally when I am feeling down, or have something going or sometimes on with me, or even just felt plane yiffy. Now that is probably the most common feeling on the damn planet, the feeling of being desperate for a mate. But that feeling could also be a very destructive one.
See, when you have this overwhelimg and all consuming desire for a mate, that emotion is probably not about a mate at all. It is probably dealing with other issues which spawns itself in the form of a the lack of a mate. Issues of low self-esteem, loneliness, lack of acceptance etc. but the primary thing is that it is not about the mate itself. We look at our lives and maybe are depressed or confused about them and then try to set a lable to try and understand why we feel that way. And by doing that, we come up with what we are lacking in our life. Thinking that "if only I get a mate, it will all be better!". The problem is that it won't.
Finding a mate will not be that magical event and experiance which turns your life and feelings around. Well it could, but not in the context about yuor personal issues. Similarily, NOT finding a mate does not mean that you will never overcome these feelings! These feels can be overcome!! But we gotta realize that just finding a mate, however disarible, is not the answer to resloving these issues. Sure having a mate is a great thing to do and may even help with the issues, but you have to realize that it will not take away problems and issues. These issues lie within ourselves, and we must confront them and deal with them.
If we have these feeling still inside us and we do find that mate, and hope that it will take those feelings away. When we realize that it wont, that feeling could poision yourself aswell as that relationship with that one person you love like no other. I sure don't want that to happen!
Now I am not saying don't get a mate, or trying to be overly negitive or pesimestic. If you take this the right way, then this could be a positive thing, as it has become with me. You do not need a mate to fix the things which lie within you. And if you realize that, especially if you do go into a relationship, then it could turn out all for the better!
The trick is to become satisfied and content with ourselves. To love ourselves and overcome what may be bogging us down. The best time to enter a relationship is when you are 100% satisfied and content with being single and with yourself. Cause then it become an addition to your life, with the soul purpose of improving and loving, not fixing and solving what is hurting you. |
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| Update of stuff |
[Jan. 13th, 2005|07:49 pm] |
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Ah, here I go again, Live Journal!
I'm not complaining this time so I guess I can finaly write something about myself.
Hrm, well I am doing well I suppose. Better than I have in the last little while. I have recently applied to Guelph, Mac and Western for Enviromental sciences (cause that will somehow matter or mean something? I dunno...)
Hopefully that will work out, but we'll see.
Emotionaly I working on stuff and am constantly getting better because of someone who really cares for me and is willing to help me out. But I'm getting better so thank you!!! (you know who you are)
Furrily, alright. I am still really looking to meet more furs localy. You must be out there! My last meet went great. I met Stripes who was such a great guy. I am usally a little nervous meeting new people but he made me feel welcome and comfortable right away. I really enjoyed haning around with him, and he even got me watching figure skateing!! I am truly glad that he is going to CACE because it will be soooo good to see another friendly face that I know there. See you there Stripes!!! *hugs*
Relationshiply, well I'm still searching for that special someone, but I have a long time yet so I'll have to teach myself to calm down and accept that things like that don't just "happen" overnight cause you want one.
Um, I belive thats it... I am kinda worried about a few frieds who I deeply care for and the hard times they are going through. I really wish them the best and will do what I can. I know they would do the same for me too.
Well thats enough for now, cause I've gotta figure out how to do something and maybe find out how to apply some of the philosophical BS I talk about work... Its soo easy to talk the talk, but walking the walk takes more. But what can you do, it keeps me thinking at least.
See ya everyone!! *snuggles* to all of you!!
(If I don't really know you well, please talk to me on msn! I'd love to get to know you!)
msn: conker2323@hotmail.com |
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| Nothing New |
[Oct. 30th, 2004|06:04 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | contemplative | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Darude: Deep Vibrations | ] |
Ah tis been a while since I used this thing, and I'm pretty bored so what the hell, why not? Ok, well I'm really looking forward to seeing Viper next weekend, it's been a few months since I've seen the dragon, so it will be nice. It was also nice to see Hunter and Pann again this weekend, all though for not too too long, it was still nice. Hrm, I need to be around more furries! I guess that is my descision for the day :P So that means I gotta get off my but and meet some more. Hrm... ah well I suppose that gives me a little more purpose then just school work. All right, I guess I gotta go find so more *looks to around him* Damn... It's going to be harder then I thought :P
Ah thats enough thinking and writing for now.
-Rennir Fox |
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| Charities |
[Sep. 5th, 2004|10:35 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | pissed off | ] |
| [ | music |
| | something on the radio, I dunno what | ] |
Ok, I still need to confirm this for myself, but apparently this charity orginization, Trillium something or other spent $92000 on researching ways for better fundraisers. And another $80000 for this oil company to do filing for them. I'm not sure if this is completely true or not, but the message for me is the same. That these is the possibility that these mega charity people are just these corrupt bastards who are taking a good chunk of the money that is meant to help people who actually need the money, to their own damn pocket. I am sure that this is true somewhere... maybe this is a smart move, but I am sure that somewhere the good will of people who donate is being abused.
I really want to do something about this. But being a damn teenager it is hard to do too much more than dream about helping this problem. I really intend to do something about this one day, not nessairly this incidense, but this problem. I know I will really try to spend the next while tring to think of ways, relaistic ways, to do something. And seriously confront this issue when I graduate university and am a little smarter than I am now.
Anyway this just really pissed me off and makes me really want to look into these people and see what is happening. And maybe do something when I can.
-Rennir Fox |
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| Feral |
[Aug. 24th, 2004|12:03 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | cheerful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Coyote Wind | ] |
Feral is tomarrow! Now I'm not sure if I should jump up with down and shiver with excitment, or bite my nails form being so damn nervous... Well I'll do both I suppose. I'm meeting Stephen tomarrow with will be really neat. I've talked to him pretty much sinse I met Fox Pawz, so I will be fun meeting someone I have been chatting to for a few months. It will be nice seeing Khaiki again too, aswell as Pann. Feral itself will be really fun, I have never been to algonquin before so that will be interisting. But I think the many furs there is the real good part. Hopefully I will get confident enough to open up a little more and be myself. The only thing that really was dissapointing is that Viper couldn't go. But anyway I'm really looking forward to going and I'll be back on the 29th. For anyone I won't see, my computer is trashed at my mom's and I won't be able to log on as much as before... or at all into it is repalced. *mutters* damn computers :P.
-Rennir Fox |
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| Others |
[Aug. 14th, 2004|11:36 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  depressed | ] |
Heh... it's really amazing how much stuff we go through for the sake of others. I'm truely glad that we do this, because I would hate to live in a life where one only worried about himself, I'm not complaining that we do. But I was just thinking about the lies I may have to say, or things I have to do so that others won't feel bad about themsevles, or feel upset etc. I'm not tring to say I'm all hard done by or anything, thats not the point of this latest rant. It's just that you have to watch what you say, or say certain things because of how a loved one or a friend will react to what you say/feel. And that sometimes you arn't able to continue maintaining that and someone actually feels really shitty cause of what you did. doing that, as hard as you might try. *sighs* I wish that it wasn't so hard and so complicated, especialy with someone who loves me sooo much (my mother) but it is still there. Heh, even the things that we can say sometimes is curbed by how others will take them in a nondirect way, like even talkting to your friends or even posting here! I know that I won't say things because I know my friends will react to it bad, or feel bad for me. Especially furs who have a habbit of getting down because of how someone else is feeling. I hate having to worry about that because I don't want to do that to my friends and something I constantly worry about. I guess thts it for my latest rant.
-Rennir Fox |
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| Changes in the last little bit |
[Aug. 7th, 2004|02:35 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | bouncy | ] |
Well I'm in a "hug it" mood. It's the weirdest thing, I just sometimes get a feeling in the center of my chest. A general loving feeling for no reason nor for anything inparticular. Just a general feeling to want to hug something or love something, etc. (My pets and plushies usally fall victem to this :P ).
I hertly belive that the furries I know and my really close friends are "responsible" for it :D . I've really notcied that I've changed in the last few months. That "hug it" feeling for one is new, and being much more "in touch" with what I am feeling and general caring. Rofl, also just something as simple shopping and snuggling and with plushies. I rearly did that in the past... I assume I didn't mainly to how I'd look to others doing that. Now I almost openly snuggle and sleep with my plushies, even though I share a room with my brother, I still do it. I mainly only hide that from my parents because then the whole gay issue will come out. It's probably on the tip of their toungs already and I'd rather not deal with it for a while.
But in general just really good, and more myself then I ever have. Regardless to if any of you ever read this... Thank You. Thank you everyone who helped me open up and become more myself. You have no idea what kind of impact that has made on my life.
-Rennir Fox |
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| anti-furry folks |
[Aug. 4th, 2004|04:18 pm] |
I just added an interisting picture to my memories list. Just to remind me that not everyone out there is good and nice. I found myself beliving that from chatting to so many furries lately. I really had mixed feelings about what I said when i heard people actually talking about a "furry holocaust", at first I wanted to say "bring it" which is unlike me as I am more of a pacifist. *sighs* I guess some people just want someone to hate, and thats what this is all about. Furries are a nice target, because they can bash furries and get some gays along with it. I was soooo tempted to post a reply but that will only make things worse, and besides, zebra_faraway said not to and thats where I got the link. I would be the first one in the line if someone wanted to stand up/do something, but I somehow doubt that there is anything to be done that won't just make the situation worse. I browsed around the SA site for a little while too, and was certainly not happy to see them quoting posts of different furs and making fun of them. I was a little shocked to see one of my friends on there too. But I guess not much can be done, so I'll try not to get myself worked up over this issue.
-Rennir Fox |
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